i realize that when im upset at someone, it’s usually because i expected something from them, or expected them to be a certain way…especially when it comes to family
there are certain unspoken rules or responsibilities about family i think…as children we expect parents to provide for us, and as a younger sibling (for myself) i expect my older sister to take care of me, and i expect myself to take care of my younger sister
but who made these rules anyway?
i’ve learned that no….i shouldn’t expect my parents to provide for me…if they raised me this far, then i have every right or responsibility to take care of myself, provide for myself and to even contribute to my parents, whatever they need, why do i always have this sense of entitlement? im not sure…but yeah if i dont expect from my parents, then there’s no need to get disappointed in them, or upset at them
and my sister….there’s no reason why i shouldn’t take care of her, i guess its cuz i feel like her mom, and the selfish me wants her to take care of me, because she’s my older sister u know? but in life there really are no “rules” things just “are” and we can’t say one way is better than the other
life is just life, im realizing HAHAHA
and you just need to live it, just take what life brings at you
and LIVE it, not just pass through it
oy im tired….im not sure why
OHHH I HAVE A SORE THROAT
AHHHHHH I THINK IM GETTING SICK
that must be why im tired @_@
im usually a very strong girl….
good night world